although i know she never reads my blog. but i'm pretty sure she would be impressed i still remember her dialect name. haha...

i've know siyun (hanyu pinyin) for like 13 years so far. she uses may more commonly now. a name she adopted after she went poly. but i still address all my secondary school khakis by their hanyu pinyin names. siyun, shuyin, shuilian...

HEY, i suddenly realised their names all start with S! no wonder they clicked, even till now.

as for me, i've lost touched with them other than the now-and-then phonecalls. hmmm, maybe only siyun la. shulian and shuying, i haven't seen or even talk to them since like 4 years back when i had regan and they came visiting.

had a good time yesterday. didn't really catch up alot as we were more busy talking nonsense and laughing like hyenas every 5 minutes about nothing in particular.

hoping we can arrange a dinner soon to catch up properly and lesser interuptions. better do it this week as both siyun and jane is on leave. otherwise, with the 2 of them flying, its gonna to be so difficult to synchronise their schedules.

even though we weren't particularly close and had some quarrels here and there during the schooling days, i still miss them. they are so very different from joanna and huizhen - from dressing to hangout places to behaviour to preferences. like ah lians and sports girls differences. but i still enjoy both sets of friends tremendously.

the weekend seems to have just gone in a blink. start of a new week... happy or sad that its another new week, i don't know yet. well, at least i'm back to blogging more conscientiously. thats a good thing. shows i'm getting the hang of things. =)

so nice right! i simply love flowers though its so superficial, so pompous and so wasteful because it will die.

invited to may's birthday bbq so got her a bouquet of lilies. don't know what she likes and i'm sure she has everything that she wants to have with my amount of budget. the stuffs that she wants to have and don't own it yet, i definitely cannot afford it. so got her flowers. no girl will complain she has too many bouquet flowers though i'm sure her 1st bouquet for her birthday would be from her boyfriend. hee...

so HINT HINT - i love many many many flowers. =)

dar picked me up after work as usual today. finally i fulfilled the dumb rule of working every saturday for the 1st month. next week onwards, i only have to work 1 saturday every 3 weeks. yay~

drove down to causeway point sakae sushi for lunch. then dar needs to go ubi to settle some stuffs hence got him to drop me off at lot 1 to walk around with regan. got the flowers, tiny card, pink op skirt (now got 30% storewide discount leh, i love GSS!), yellow top for regan, date stamp, small puzzle for regan and personalised sticky notepad (below).

i'm a sucker for personalised stuffs. good thing that my name is common so confirm have. but sad thing is so common thus usually sold out lor. =P

i've got the name sticker, name mini notepad, name handphone pouch and now name sticky notepad. wheeeee~

initially i was so tempted to buy 3 can but stopped myself. the name mini notepad i bought 2 weeks back still haven't use as bu she de (can't bear to). haha... it looks so nice ma. then i was thinking got special occasion then use lor. the only thing is i haven't figure our what are considered special occasions. hur hur...

my obsession with anything that got to do with my name shows i'm rather narcissistic. =/

feeling tired. go take a nap before making my way down to east coast park for the bbq. its been so so so long since i met up with my secondary school girlfriends. kinda looking forward to it. so sad no camera still. *sighs* so no pictures.

*yawns* nappy time...

its been so long since i even talk to dap and cal, not to say meet-up. i really miss them. missing all the times that i was mugging and them rooting for me. but i'm feeling so guilty because when it was their turn for exams, i was so busy working that i wasn't there for them. i'm the worse friend ever...

brief update...

(1) centre manager is pregnant.

(2) i left my calculator somewhere in office and now i cannot find, don't know which idiot stole it. *grrrrr*

(3) tomorrow first thing must dig out all the faxes from 3 may to 18 may for one customer instruction as operations centre did not process and i cannot recall which date was the fax dated. dumb!

(4) dinner with pamela, rachel and lixuan tomorrow night. hope noone cancels.

(5) was late this morning. *geez* don't know its the how many time-th this two weeks. came up with a lame excuse that it was raining somemore because as i walked in, centre manager was at my desk asking someone something. how lucky. =S

(6) go fly kite this weekend (if i can manage to buy a kite). those ma-ma shops don't sell anymore and i don't want to go all the way to marina south which seems like the only place that has now.

this is a bad week. one of the worst. sometimes i find it so true not to gloat over the good life that i'm having or else it would turn horribly wrong. and that's what had just happen. not that my life was very good but i was contented. now i have a thorn stuck in my flesh and it doesn't seem like its going to be removed anytime soon so i got to live with it for a while.

that aside, its another hectic week. time always pass in a flash when i'm working in a bank especially as there are so many things to do. one minute ago its 9.00am and the next its 6.00pm. its ok to be 9.00am but its not ok to be 6.00pm with the in-tray still piled high with stuffs to be done.

i don't like carrying things un-done to the next day as it doesn't mean that the work will just disappear. it means i have more to do the next day. so i must well finished it then rolling it over.

i find life kinda un-fair sometimes too. sit-next-to-me-colleague is rather messy (a nice colleague la, i'm not like detesting him or whatsoever, just that i find that me being neat and meticulous has no rewards) so his desk has lots of papers scattered all over the place but mine being next to his is neat as a pin and such a stark contrast.

its not that i'm new and very free ok. even when i'm so so so busy, i always make it a point to keep it neat. i'm obsessed with neatness.

anyways, so when my bm walks over with some stuffs for sit-next-to-me-colleague to be done, see his desk like so messy = busy, see my desk so neat = nothing to do, pass the stuffs to me and ask me to help to do because he is busy. i wish i can just scream "NO LOR, I'M DAMN BUSY ALSO CAN! that's why i stay till 9pm to clear my work and this colleague leaves at 7pm for home sweet home."

not only my bm thinks so, everyone seems to think so can. *sighs*

i didn't even eat lunch today because i was swarmed with work but the sit-next-to-me-colleague went for his usual lunch can. so sad.

why am i being penalised with more work, other people's work some more, for being tidy. *sighs*

of course, i say "no prob, i can do." to my bm when his work was given to me. i'm not one to retort "i'm very busy now ok". i try what i can. i do what i can. its not that i'm hypocritcal here by saying things behind sit-next-to-me-colleague's back but i can't say "bm, no lor, sit-next-to-me-colleague is very free ok. he looks busy only because his table looks like a hurricane just went past it." not very friendly right. with me being new and all somemore. and maybe he is really busy at that point in time leh. =P oh well. maybe i should mess up my table real bad also. haa...

i've already nagged at sit-next-to-me-colleague to be less messy before we left office today but i must get it out of me and say it once again "sit-next-to-me-colleague, i'm really not against you nor don't want to help you when you are busy BUT i really appreciate if you can be neater and tidier please?"

this is what happens when i'm working. i've been missing before when i'm so pre-occupied with my work. i hadn't even had the time to pick up blogging when i was still working last year till august. tells how much work takes up my time. i'm a motivated, focused, serious and dedicated worker ok. =)

hope i can settle down at work soon and then i will have more time to do my own stuffs. now its like work-eat-work-eat-sleep. but i still think that the last two weeks had been great! enjoyed every minute of my life. =)

last saturday, after work, went red star to eat dim sum. hee... looking forward to the weekend. planning to order pizza hut home after work and watch dvd while lunching on pizzas! yummy. =9 but next weekend even better! long weekend. yay~

i really miss everyone. miss reading everyone's blog. miss msning. kinda sad i'm like losing touch with lots of friends. late in replying sms-es. not answering calls. i'm like a hermit in my social life. *bleahz*

this entry should be more eventful and meaningful being my number 200th entry. but i really can't work up anything decent after a long week of work.

ok, my brain is shutting down on me. evidenced by my incoherent entry above.

[edit on 13-5-2005 @ 11.36pm ] re-reading after publishing, i really cannot understand what i'm typing. all my messy random thoughts. shows how tired i am. nites nites peeps. enjoy the weekend ahead! =)

work is ok. pretty much the same as before so can cope.

colleagues are ok. i'm so happy i'm the youngest even at 25. yay~

bm is ok. understand her well already so its going to easier working knowing what she detests and appreciate.

environment is ok. office layout is neat and it doesn't hurt that i can do lots of shopping near-by. only thing is not many fast-foods around. i love fast-foods!

table is lousy. i don't like sitting in a position where there are people behind you and they can see what you are doing. but no other seats available already, though i did get to choose between 2. haa... another existing guy colleague had to take the last seat left because his existing seat is no good, according to a feng-shui master that was hired to look at the branch's feng-shui last week. ladies first ma so i got to choose first. hee...

toilet is interesting shocking. its a unisex toilet like the one in ally mcbeal. YIKES! there are 8 cubicles, 6 sinks and 1 vanity mirror. and shared by the whole branch (personal & premier) staffs. its ultimately un-nerving for me. so far, i haven't met any of my male colleagues in there and i don't wish to. why like that... =(

i don't know how to start this post. i've tried a dozen ways "just came back from...; feeling bloated...; had a great weekend..." but none seems to be apt. no mood to blog perhaps. blogger block. lack of inspirations. *bleahz* it seems weird that i keep up with my blogging during my exam period and now when i can blog, i don't seem to be blogging. can't do the right thing at the right time.

had dinner at prima revolving restaurant today. i love their peking duck. yum yum... its so crowded and noisy today because of the holiday. and we were served so slowly - from being seated to taking orders to serving the food. that 10% service charge of almost $50 is a waste as i don't feel like i'm getting any service. *geez*

the dinner is an early celebration for dad's birthday and mother's day which happens to fall on the same day this year which is next sunday. but next weekend is going to be even more chaotic so we pushed it to this week instead.

i was lamenting it seems odd that ah di is not here (of course dad shrugged it off as we are those 'conservative traditional family', but i can tell he is missing him also lor, eldest son leh, how not to miss when its his first long trip away from home, ns don't count ma) and we were somehow missing him during the dinner and voila, he called. telepathy! =)

dad, mom, sister and brother are going to perth for 3 days during the vesak day weekend to visit him. wish i can go but i gotta work. *sighs* *sighs* *sighs* although its an extremely short trip but still... so i have to be 'gan men gou'. cannot go and must be watch house dog, so sucky can! dad decreed we got to move into his house for that 3 days to look after his fishes, his chickens, my rabbit and his maid. but come to think of it properly, its a good deal in fact. haa haa... i got MAID for 3 days! yay~

so happy tomorrow is still a holiday (finally, i start to appreciate holidays, haven't been as everyday was a holiday to me for the last 9 months). heh... i'm going to enjoy myself thoroughly and work is gonna start proper the day after.

worrying constantly if i can get along with my new colleagues. hope they are easy to get along with. though i'm working under my old branch manager and some old colleagues, but majority are new faces to me. and working environment matters a lot to me.

millions of worries running through my mind now. what if i cannot get along with them? what if they are snobbish? what if they super like to backstab? what if they are not friendly? what if they purposely sabo me? what if......

i just to stay positive. so far all my workplaces are great and most of my ex-colleagues are great. so this place is so not going to be the first that i will hate. yes, it will be a fantastic workplace teeming with fantastic colleagues with fantastic synergy! hmmm, do i sound convincing? =P *fingers crossed* will i jinx it by thinking so positive? sometimes i hate to be so optimisstic.

a bad habit of mine is to think the worst of things so that (a) if it turns out to be bad, i'm mentally prepared or (b) if it turns out to be good, its like a bonus to me. that's why i think i'm quite a pessimist.

well, if any of you happens to be at raffles place, remember to ask me out for lunch ya. =)